i've been working on talking myself into this for over two weeks now. i promised myself after new york that i would not train for another marathon while in this crazy work/life situation; at the time i thought i was done in kentucky in january, giving me time to train for boston on a more "normal" schedule. i haven't put myself wholeheartedly (or even half) into training for boston, and with the re-flare up of my 'vertigo', i am really starting to believe this is the path i need to take for now.
so - a new approach to boston, which is now less than a month away! gone are the hopes and dreams of a pr, and in it's place - survival. vertigo is no joke and has sprung out of nowhere on me with two hardcore "episodes" where i couldn't even walk (once while sitting at the computer and second while standing in the kitchen making lunch). first, i hope to still actually be able to run boston and toe the start line. second, it'd sure be nice to cross the finish line too! if i am able to run boston, it will simply be for fun and i won't put pressure on myself with any goals. if i become a race-walker, then so be it.
i've re-worked my training plan to fit in better with my actual schedule, although i don't know i would still call it a "training plan". i'm just going to try to run a little each day - whether it's 10/30/60 minutes, and continue to hold the couch down on the days where the world is spinning. i've definitely become guilty of trying to squeeze miles into my week (although mostly just on paper lately) instead of being realistic and doing what works for me/my schedule. i'm sure that added bit of stress hasn't helped.
here's to the boston start line! hopefully i'll be wearing running clothes instead of jeans.